October 12, 2011
I don’t know what to do about what I saw today! I can’t believe that I saw that happen! I know that it’s right to tell somebody, especially him. But I can’t since it’s not good for me to tell or it’ll cause lots of heartache and pain. What shall I do? Should I tell or keep quiet? I don’t want to break Rose’s trust, but I can’t help but feel extremely guilty about keeping it a secret since I’m practically lying to everyone I know about what I saw today. But I definitely need to keep it secret or else even though it’s against my morals.
October 14, 2011
I hate lying to everyone. I’ve never lied before this, but I’m doing this for Rose and Jason. But I can’t help but to practically drown myself in my guilt since I need to tell Jason what is going on with Rose. However, Rose doesn’t know that I know her secret at all and that makes the whole situation even worse because surely if she finds out that I know about what she’s doing, she’ll kill me after begging me to stay quiet about the whole thing that she’s hiding from Jason. And I still can’t say anything about this because surely Jason will get hurt from this unless Rose is hiding something more that I don’t know about either.
October 15, 2011
I saw Jason today. He looked so completely like … Jason. I still can’t get over the overbearing guilt that is building up inside of me, threatening to kill me from the inside like a demonic child in some of those TV shows. Still dunno what to do about the knowledge I know about Rose that has been on the tip of my tongue for the past couple of days. I saw Rose also today, but she seemed to have gotten pale since the last time I’ve seen her. Even a bit … chubby? I dunno what is wrong with her, but she seems out of it! She told me about how she’s been feeling sick for a couple of weeks. Could it be what I think it is?
October 18, 2011
I can’t believe it! I just can’t! I shouldn’t really be shocked about this, but I still can’t believe it! I dunno what to do now. I don’t want to get Rose into trouble but I … I still can’t believe she’s pregnant. I still have yet to tell Jason about her affair with his best friend, Ron. Oh god, I dunno what to do anymore. Should I tell him or not? Maybe after Rose’s pregnancy comes out into the open … then again knowing Rose, she doesn’t even realize she’s pregnant! I can’t keep letting Jason be deceived but … Rose … I’ll go and talk to Rose and see if she’d come clean with Jason. I don’t want anything horrible to happen between them. They’re my friends, but I … I must talk to Rose. NOW. This can’t go on nor can her lies about her affair.
I love how it showcases internal conflict with how Jade wants to tell, but not tell at the risk of losing a friendship before finally coming to a solution she likes.
Maybe tweak what exactly was Jade’s secret could be instead of the current one where it would be even more conflicting.